Trusting your Inner Voice
Have you ever ignored that quiet, steady voice within you, the one that knows what’s right for you? I have. It’s a moment I think about often.
When I had my first baby, I felt so deeply in my heart that I didn’t want him to have any vaccinations. It was my intuition, clear and unwavering. For months, I stood firm, holding on to what I believed was right for my family.
But I was young, and I was alone in my conviction. No one around me agreed, and whilst Josh was supportive either way, he also didn’t know what was best, so completely deferred to me. Eventually, after two hours on the phone with a health visitor one afternoon, I gave in and agreed to let him have some (not all) but some - but some was more than none. I let someone else’s authority override what I knew to be true.
That decision remains my biggest regret. I tell my son often how sorry I am, and whilst I have done everything in my power to mitigate the toxins and heavy metals, as well as the damage to his immune system, and in large I know I have done this successfully, I still carry the weight of that choice with me every time I think about it. It’s not easy to admit when you’ve gone against yourself, especially when it involves those you love the most.
But that experience, as painful as it was, taught me a lesson I will never forget: no one knows what’s best for you or your family better than you do.
Over time, I grew stronger. My confidence as a mother grew, too. By the time my son was 18 months, I stood firm, and this time I didn’t waiver, there were no more vaccines for my family. When my daughter was born, I trusted myself completely. She hasn’t had any. In fact, not a vaccine, nor any conventional medicine (including any pain killer nor antibiotic), has entered my children since that point.
This isn’t about whether my decision was right or wrong in anyone else’s eyes. It’s about the cost of going against myself. It’s about the regret that comes when you ignore your intuition. And it’s about the peace that comes when you choose to listen to it instead.
Most of my life, I’ve been comfortable being the outlier. I trust my instincts and intuition. But in that one rare, and terrible, moment, I ignored them. It has never happened—and will never happen—again.
Here’s what I’ve learned: trusting your intuition isn’t always easy. Sometimes it makes you stand apart. Sometimes it makes you question everything. But it’s always worth it.
So today, I want to ask you: when was the last time you trusted your inner voice? And if you’ve been ignoring it lately, what’s one small way you can start to listen again?
Your intuition is there to guide you. Trust it. It will rarely steer you wrong.